By God’s gracious providence I am now healed. No more tears, loneliness and worries. Everything is fine now. I know He worked a way I didn’t see but I felt it. I felt his warm embrace during those times I cried out for comfort and bringing my emotional pain to Him. It was just like magic, suddenly I felt alright. Just one touched of His Hand and all the pain are gone.
All posts for the month March, 2009
I got a call from an old egyptian friend last night. I met him in Dubai. He used to be my father, my clown during those saddiest moments, my crying shoulder and someone I can lean on.
During our conversation He said something that overwhelms my soul. He said ” Everyday He remembers me for he saw the difference in me compare to girls he met specifically to all Filipina he knew. He told me to remain godly, extraordinary and righteous. It’s a great honor that my light shines on him, that he sees the light, the difference in me. It’s a great balm for all the tease and persecutions I’ve got for being different from others.
By nature, we want people to like us especially in a foreign land, to have friends and companion, and the safest way to do is to blend in. But I chose not to blend in but to bring the difference of our God to my collegues though it was not easy for me. It is a lil bit uncomfortable and sacrificial.
Atlast after long hours of travel with Etihad Airways it’s now over. I arrived in Muscat Oman International Airport at 10:45 am. The Pulic Relation Officer picked me up and brought me directly to the Office. It took only a while introducing myself to them and vise versa and they sent me right away to the accommodation which is just so very close to the Hotel.
I appreciated them so much the way they welcome me. They prepared a bottles of water, beddings, towel, basket of fruits & welcome letter in my bed.
MY FRIST DAY:
Inevitably can’t kept tears from falling. I felt like I was in the wilderness, so lonely & broken, don’t know where to go, don’t know where to turn, nothing to do but to go on , crying & counting the days. I have nothing but Hope. Hope that one day I would find a companion and find the way back home. Sometimes I could say that money could not pay to the loneliness I have encountered. Better to work & stay in my own country eventhough I will earn not that much compare on how much I will earn abroad, atleast I am happy and not lonely. I decided then might this will be my last time.
We made a Hotel Tours from Muscat to Al Madinah Holiday Inn Hotel branch on my first day of training. I thanked God I enjoyed it. I forgot one day of sorrow. I enjoyed seeing the overlooking rock mountains and ocean and I enjoyed taking picture to myself…he..he…I am nervous but in the same time excited for I am going to have a training in Front Office -Reception, Reservation, Housekeeping and F&B. It’s good for me because I know I will gain knowledge & will learn many things from it.
Since childhood, I have always been fascinated to work abroad than to work in my own country. This is it! I am leaving tomorrow to start a new journey of my life. It feels very unusual though it isn’t my first time. I don’t know if I gonna go or back-out for definetly I will gonna miss my family, love one and friends and I’m so tired of being alone and hate to be a stranger again. I know it already how hard to work in a foreign country. But of course I need to decide to go considering all the expenses we spent and the effort I made. I believe this would be a greener pasture for me. If I did it before why not this time?. I just need to be strong again and take more courage. God is with me wherever I go. I am standing on His promises as what he said in Jeremiah 29:11-13 “I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
I hate saying this…but…to all of you who loves me..GOODBYE! Don’t worry & sad for I will come back home. Saying goodbye it doesn’t mean forever, it’s just GOODBYE.
To my family, thank you for all your supports. You are my inspiration. I love you and I will miss you all. I am so proud you are my family.Please, pray for me and I will pray for you all also.