November 25, 2010

Two years have passed, when God painfully sculpted my life for a great design. He let people break me to build the master piece He wanted for me.

I was completely broken. My heart shattered into small pieces. I felt like God had abandoned me and it made me reached to the point of questioning Him, Why He had bless everyone except me? Why had He left me–hurting, heartbroken & most of all–the feeling like a fool. I knew God had a wonderful  purpose why I got through that pain. But loving the life I had that  i thought was beautiful and was meant for me brought me into misery.

Leaning on my own understanding made me so difficult to understand what God really wanted for me. Even though I trusted Him that He was only working for my best but still everything seemed so unclear & unfair for me. I felt bitterness & wished for the people caused me so much pain that one day they will know & feel how much painful they have done & go through what i went through and that God will let them be ashamed and brought to confusion together that rejoice at mine hurt: will let them be clothed with shame & dishonour that magnify themselves againts me (Psalms 35:26). But thanks God despite I didn’t feel resentment deep inside. I learned to understand & forgive. I walked-on & let God construct  the new design of my life.

Moving-on and acceptance of the things i thought i’d lost was not easy. It took years for me to let go.  After all, I felt God have never left me. He planned everything perfectly. Through prayers, by faith & by my family He gave me strength & comfort to carry on everyday. His holy hands hold me still, shaping my heart anew.

My heart is fixed, oh God, my heart is fixed: I will sing and give praise. (Psalms 57:7)

God indeed works in His own ways. Now my heart rejoice for what he has done. He makes all things beautiful in His time.

Love brings me back around. I fall in love again.. 🙂

After all Life is still Beautiful!!!